Birthdays and Besties

Recently I wrote a post about my birthday and how it didn’t exactly go to plan. It was nobody’s fault at all, it was just one of those days where things kept happening. Luckily though I had another birthday do to fall back on. I went out for a meal with my friends. We went to Zizzi, an Italian restaurant in the city centre. As always it took me ages to decide where to go and I have only been there once before, so I thought I would give it another go. I was quite pleased with myself actually, I tried arancini for the first time. This is balls of risotto that are fried and they came with a dip. They were really tasty! I would say they were my favourite part of the meal food wise.

The meal this year was really special for me in a few ways. It was my first birthday with my lovely boyfriend. We arrived together as a couple and I have never actually done that before. I felt all grown up. It felt different in one way, but in another way it felt completely normal, like he has always had his place there with us. It felt like that to me anyway. Plus this time last year was the start of my post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and now a year on, I have gone through some very tough therapy and I don’t actually have it any more! So it feels a big achievement to be here a year on therapy free and PTSD free. šŸ˜€

And of course it was special because I have the best friends in the whole world. That isn’t just me being creepy I genuinely believe it. When my sight got worse, about nine years ago now I pushed my friends and just about everybody away. I couldn’t accept how my life had changed and how much i needed help. I hated the thought of being around my friends and needing their help and being a burden. Eventually I got my act together and slowly I started to let them help me. There was no other way. I was just going to be lonely for the rest of my life if I didn’t. Now it’s been quite a long time since then and we’ve got into the swing of things. They do look after me and make sure I’m ok, we even manage to have a laugh about it sometimes. But they don’t let it take away the fact that I’m still me. We talk about completely random stuff just like we always did and have fun together. For me, a birthday isn’t a birthday without my friends. ā¤

xx ā¤ xx

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