The Waiting Game

So here I am again, playing the waiting game. Waiting for help with my mental health. A few months ago now I contracted my local mental health service, who were absolutely USELESS! Such a contrast to last time. I know that they are completely run off their feet at the moment, but they haven’t treat…

Mood Swings and Roundabouts (They are more than just swings!)

When I first started to struggle with my PTSD (Post traumatic stress disorder) two years ago, I realised that my moods were very up and down. Some days I’d be really happy and bubbly, others I’d be quite stressed and then others I’d be quite down. Some days I’d just feel completely drained and washed…

Her – The Dark Side of My Mind

For years now I have been in a battle with Her, the dark side of my mind. The side of my mind that is full of negative thoughts. Throughout this time I have thought of this side of me a bit like a different person, like an evil twin. There’s the real me and then…

Coronavirus Diary – Page 15 (New Year, New Lockdown)

I should really start this post by saying Happy New Year, but I’m really not feeling it this year. Obviously I really hope that you do all have a great new year, but I’m not feeling so optimistic. Every new year’s eve I send everybody a text at midnight to wish them happy new year,…

How to Feel a Virtual Hug

Since the pandemic started last year, a hug is something that I don’t think any of us will take for granted again. We used to be able to hug complete strangers at new year and now we can’t even hug our loved ones. This is one of the things that I have struggled with the…

Dressing Positively

A month ago, me and my boyfriend decided to have an online date night for our anniversary. We haven’t been able to see each other for eight months now because of Covid, but we weren’t going to let our special day get missed. So we did everything we could to celebrate without actually seeing each…

Our One Year of Being Together Thing ❤

Yesterday it was my boyfriend and I’s first anniversary. It is really exciting and special for both of us. I can’t belive that he has put up with me for a whole year. I definitely haven’t made it easy for him. Despite all my faults and mistakes he still loves me and that really does…

Happy First Anniversary! ❤

One year ago foday i became the girlfriend of the most loving, patient and understanding man in the whole world. We have definitely had a strange first year together, with many ups and downs.  I have learnt so much in this time. One of those thibgs is that i am so incredibly lucky to be…

Coronavirus Diary – Page 14 (Social chaos)

This week I was supposed to be on holiday in sunny Spain. Because of Covid -19 this hasn’t happened and it is not likely to happen any time soon. Even though we were not going away, me and my family decided to try and have a few days out together. Yesterday we decided to go…