The Waiting Game

So here I am again, playing the waiting game. Waiting for help with my mental health. A few months ago now I contracted my local mental health service, who were absolutely USELESS! Such a contrast to last time. I know that they are completely run off their feet at the moment, but they haven’t treat…

How to Feel a Virtual Hug

Since the pandemic started last year, a hug is something that I don’t think any of us will take for granted again. We used to be able to hug complete strangers at new year and now we can’t even hug our loved ones. This is one of the things that I have struggled with the…

Understanding and Accepting My Mind

The other day somebody on TV was talking about her mental health and how she has learned to own how she feels and accept the bad days. This got me thinking about my mental health and how in January this year I thought that my PTSD (Post traumatic stress disorder) had been cured forever. It…

Hey PTSD, You’re back!

Going into the lockdown my post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) has started to show it’s ugly mug again. The trauma I experienced was seven years ago. I spent three months in hospital and was in and out of critical care three times. I am obviously really thankful for this, because it saved my life. But…

Coronavirus Diary – Page 5 (Staying mentally well)

As you may have read on some of my previous posts, I have been really struggling mentally with the lockdown. I know that this isn’t easy for anyone, but when you have difficulties with your mental health, or even if you have in the past, then this is an extremely overwhelming time. I would just…

My PTSD Journey – Part 3 (The end of CBT)

Well here we are… the end of a very long and challenging year of my life but also a big chunk of my life. Over the last year I have been living with post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and having cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) to treat it. Before starting my therapy I heard a lot…

The Power of Distraction

Over the years I have come to realise that thinking does not do me any good. I’m not really sure that it does anybody any good. Over thinking doesn’t anyway. Over thinking just sends your mind around in circles and it never ever ever ends. There’s so many things in life to over think and…

My PTSD Journey – Part 1

For a while now i have been feeling quite unsettled. My moods have been really up and down. Some days waking up feeling mentally exhausted and flying off the handle at the most ridiculous things. Then other days i will wake up full of beans and ready and raring to go. However when I get…